It has actually happened a whole year with no surgery! First year in seven and no surgery. Still cant quite believe it but my last CT shows no evidence of change which also means second year in seven NO CANCER. It appears I am winning the battle so do one cancer consider yourself banished!!
Okay Im not naive enough to think there might be a chance it could return but the fact that hosp now only want to scan twice a year not four times a year gives me hope.
Moving on I know in my last post I spoke a lot about the support on twitter from people that may never meet. However on the 1st of Dec there was a tweet up which I hope will lead to more!! It was amazing to meet up with these wonderful people to put not only a face but a voice to a tweet! It was a wonderful,awesome,brilliant day. Some of us met for a coffee at the Royal Festival hall before moving on to meet the rest of our party at a lovely Italian restaurant called Vapiano.
The food was good,more importantly the company was excellent. Laughter and conversation flowed as though we had been friends for years. It did occur to me that other customers might have thought that some of us may have been carers for others because of the noise but the table of santas next to us seemed to be getting stranger looks. There was almost an incident involving a basil plant but I wont dwell on that.
We had a wander down Regent St.,a quick visit to the Apple store before visiting the Nespresso Boutique where there was nearly another incident! A member of staff accidently head butted one of our party, luckily our personal lawyer rushed in to work out damages and we were able to queue jump to a coffee sample! It also seems that Jedward has a third member working in the store!
It took us a while to find a pub with enough room for us all,being a saturday and pre-theatre time, but we did. It was a day I will remember for a long time :-)
For me this month has been mostly highs but there has been a few lows thrown in. Being diagnosed with osteo-arthritis has added a few lows. Having to finally admit getting in and out of bath was difficult but I now have a bath chair which helps but isnt ideal. I've also been given a walking stick for those wobbly days which again I'm not happy about!
Something strange happened aswell. Last week I was invited to a survivorship group at the Macmillan centre at Kings.The first two talks about exercise and diet were interesting. Then came a talk about the emotional impact of cancer and to my suprise I couldnt stop the tears. I dont know what triggered it I thought I had got past all the hurdles but obviously I havnt.
Maybe it was because I was so worried about the scan results I hadnt had then. Maybe I still havnt accepted everything that has happened.
Right now though I'm focusing on the new year. I want to really start doing my crafts more,when I eventually get my room sorted, and try to sell some work. I want NO I need to start feeling 'normal' and get out more. I want to break free from all the restraints cancer has placed on me but that really isnt entirely possible because of the pain left from surgeries.
So as someone said to me earlier onwards and upwards. I dont know what the new year has in store for me, none of us do,but I hope/want to be a stronger person.
