Saturday 4 January 2014

A letter to cancer!

So my friends Christmas is over and a new year has started. I'm not sorry to see 2013 end after all the gall bladder and stone adventures!! Although it did end on a high with another clear ct scan making me two years and a few months clear.
Before I go any further let me wish one and all a Healthy and Happy New Year. None of us know what's to come so positive hugs all round and on with the writing.

I've thought long and hard of a subject and it occurred to me I would like to tell cancer exactly what it has done to my life. So here goes . . .

Firstly why did you take my mum? I was only nine. Growing up I had no one to confide in about those girlie things that happen. No mother and daughter shopping trips, actually would that have happened? Would we have got on? When I became a mum who was I supposed to turn to for comfort and advice? Yes luckily dad and I were close and he was always available for chats. It wasn't until I became a nan and my girls asked me for advice that I realised what I had missed.

Then you decided to come for me and have put me through hell!! The scars on my body are proof I'm not letting you win. The constant pain caused by surgery a small price to pay for getting rid of you! I might not be physically as strong as I was before the battle began but I am still the victor!!

Emotionally? Mainly positive so step aside and let me move on. Okay so I do have down days but who doesn't? I get upset when I hear of friends with new battles, struggling with treatments and getting bad results. Last year many tears were shed as friends lost their battle.

Yes my life has changed drastically. I haven't worked since we met so financially things are difficult BUT don't chalk that up as a victory because I intend selling knitting and craft items. It's making these projects that has kept me sane.

So what happens next then? Who knows? I know what I would like to happen. I would like YOU to f*** off and leave everyone alone! One day that will happen, one day you will be banished for good until then be assured you are not welcome in my life again!!